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Name: Mimi
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Age: 18
Location: Serbia
Occupation: Still in school!




All About You

1. Describe your ideal house/home. Please go into as much detail as possible, and be sure to include your ideal geographical location in the description!.
I am very much a city girl. I love being in a big city, the vibe, the different cultures mixing, always having something to do, having everything I need right at my fingertips. I could never live in the country. I also prefer warm climates – I love warmth and being in the sun, and find extremely cold weather hard to bear.
As for the house itself, I’ve thought less about it. I’m not picky about whether it’s a house or an apartment, but I would like it to be relatively big, as I really love having lots of space. It would also need to be very comfortable – lots of soft chairs and sofas everywhere, so I could just plop down and relax whenever I want. One thing I would absolutely love would be a big, cozy library, with room for many books and big windows to let in lots of light. I’m a huge bookworm and would probably spend most of my time there (and on the computer, as long as we’re being honest). I would love to have windows everywhere, actually, as I really like having lots of natural light. I know this is not really the most practical thing when living in a big city, but hey. The only other thing I can think of is that I want there to be colour. I really dislike those houses where everything is beige or white or whatever. Doesn’t mean that I want my walls painted neon green, of course, but colour needs to be involved.


2. Imagine you’re given the classic opportunity: a genie granting you three wishes. What would you wish for? Please be as elaborate as you can. Wishing for more wishes is not permitted!
This might sound cheesy, but one wish would definitely be for my best friend. She’s in a really difficult place in her life right now, she’s struggling with everything and she has some serious problems. I would wish for good things to start happenig to her, for her life to get easier. She’s a wonderful person, and she deserves it.
As for the second wish, I’d want to move away from here. I live in a prejudiced, extremely patriarchal, sexist, very strictly religious enviorment. I really dislike the mentality of people here, and I’m uncomfortable around most of them. People judge you harshly based on your sexuality, religion, race and anything else you can think of. I’ve had people threaten my life several times. I don’t like it here, but I’m not likely to get a chance to move away, so one of my wishes would definitely go towards that.
For my third wish, I’d like to have the power of telepathy. I used to watch the X-men cartoon when I was younger, and that always seemed to me like the best power to have. I don’t know if it’s me being overly nosy and curious, but reading people’s minds has always had a strange attraction for me. (But I would try to make sure I wasn’t violating anyone’s privacy in any serious way.) Also, it ‘s just such a useful power! All the tricky situations it could get me out of.


3. In your life so far, what accomplishment are you the most proud of? Why? You can list more than one if you have trouble deciding. ;)
I think getting into my current school would qualify, even though I wouldn’t say I’m super proud of it. The application process is very tricky, as are the tests you have to take, and there are a lot of people competing for not that many spots. It was definitely a rush getting in. One of the occasions in my life when I felt really smart.


4. Which of the following is most important to you: Love, Money, Knowledge, Family, Friendship, Adventure, or Pleasure? Which is the least important to you? Please explain why for each choice.
Hmmm. The most important to me is friendship, I think. It took me a while to find them, but the friends I have now are some of the best people I’ve ever met. I love them so much, and when I haven’t spoken to them for a few days I get nervous and twitchy. I don’t know what I’d do without those wonderful people.
It’s harder for me to pick least important, since I think they’re all important in some ways, but I think I’ll go with family, awful as that sounds. I’ve had a pretty rocky family life, and while I do love most of them and would do anything for them, the family as a functioning unit has never been very important to me. I’ve never liked the idea that you are obligated to love your family simply because they’re your family – if someone is a terrible person and treats you like crap, “but they’re family” is not an excuse.


5. What's one quote (or passage, song lyric, etc.) that effectively describes you and your values? Explain.
“I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn’t impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.” (Anaïs Nin)
I don’t know, I am really bad at talking about myself, but this is a quote I encountered some time ago that I feel really represents the way I look at things and relate to the world.


6. How do you manage your money? On that note, how important is money/financial security to you? Go into as much detail as you can.
As I’m fairly young, I still haven’t faced a situation where I’d be fully in control of managing my finances, so I have no idea how I’d do. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t appreciate having money, though. My family has always been very financialy secure, and while we’re not insanely rich or anything of that sort, we’ve never had serious money troubles. So I do like spending money, but I really don’t think I waste it, or at least I’ve tried not to. Time will tell how I’ll manage when I have more responsibility on my shoulders, though.


7. Name (and elaborate on) some of your hobbies. What are your favorite things to do outside of school/the office?
Reading is definitely the thing I spend most of my time on. I recently got a Kindle, and it’s probably one of the best purchases I’ve ever made; while I love having actual physical copies of books, a lot of the books I want to read are hard (or impossible) to find here, and having a Kindle makes things much easier. I’ve loved reading for as long as I can remember. I’m not sure I can quite put it into words, but for me it’s simply the most entertaining and comfoting thing to do. Reading about all these fictional people’s lives and stories is like crack to me. When I discovered fandom, I started reading a lot of fanfiction, so that’s a part of it as well.
I enjoy writing once in a while, but mostly I get my joy from watching and reading things and then discussing the arcs, the characters, the ships, the tingly emotions all these stories give me. I’m not very physically active, and sport of any kind is just not my thing. Toddlers have better hand-eye coordination than me.


8. Name three things you are afraid of. Explain.
Needles. Absolutely terrified of them. When I was about ten years old, I was in a pretty bad car accident that left me hospitalized for three months, and I had my blood taken at least once every day. It really stuck with me, and now I get nervous at the mere mention of needles – which is a shame, as I’d really like to get a tattoo some day.
Drowning is another one, but my relationship with it is very strange. I am both fascinated by and terrified of deep, vast expanses of water. I really can’t explain it in any rational way, but I’m both drawn to it and repulsed by it.
Loneliness. I don't need fifty people around me to feel good, but I do need people. As I said before, when I don’t talk to any of my friends for a few days, I start panicking. I’m scared of not having anyone, of total silence, and yes, ultimately, of dying alone, melodramatic as it may sound.


9. Name (and elaborate on) your top three BEST and top three WORST qualities (personality-related, not physical). Please answer as fully as you can, as this is an important question.
WORST
I am a terrible, terrible procrastinator. I always put everything off until the last minute, and it’s come back to bite me in the ass many times. And yet I never learn. I tend to take the “if you ignore it, it will go away” approach far too much, even though I know it solves nothing and just leaves me with more problems than I started with.
I have somewhat of a one-track mind. When I get obsessed with something (say, a certain book series) I somehow always find a way to turn conversation to it, even with people who have no idea what I’m talking about. I realize how annoying this can be, and yet I am totally incapable of reining it in.
I am very, very insecure. About my looks, about my inteligence, everything. I objectively know I am not terribly ugly or terribly stupid, but I often feel that way. I second-guess myself a lot, I don’t share most of my ideas because I’m afraid people will think they’re silly and stupid. A lot of the time in class I know the answer to a question the teacher asks, but don’t say it because I’m too scared I’ll mess up. And I’m really scared of messing up. I’m not sure how much that shows or what people see, but I am a mess.
BEST
Compassionate. I care about people and always try to be there for them, to listen and to help however I can. Being a good friend is really important to me, and I always try to be supportive and give whatever advice I can. If nothing else, I’m always there for hugs!
Creative. I’ve been reading and hearing stories for as long as I can remember, and they’ve influenced me hugely. I spend half of my time daydreaming, coming up with stories and ideas and characters, thinking about things I’d read and seen and fic ideas and my head is in the clouds a lot, basically.
Insightful. I’ve found (and been told, really) I can read people pretty well, it doesn’t take me too long to understand them and where they’re coming from and how they see things. And I like doing it, figuring out how people’s minds work, what makes them tick, why they do the things they do. I’m very curious in that regard.




A Song of Ice and Fire Related

1.Who are your favorite three characters in the series? Why?
This was though, as I like so many of them!
Sansa Stark. I see her get so much hate and I don’t get it at all. From the very beginning I could sympathize with her, and my respect just grew as the series went on. I think she’s incredibly brave and very smart, and I think she’s shaping up to be one of the best players in the game. The way she deals with the shitty situations she’s in (the poor girl simply cannot catch a break) is so admirable, and she remains so kind throughout that I cannot imagine how anyone could hate her. I think her arc is one of the best constructed in the books, and I cannot wait to see what happens next in her story. Basically, Sansa is my girl. Haters know nothing.
Arianne Martell. Dorne is one of my absolute favourite locations, and I love love love all the Martells (and the Sand Snakes), but Arianne is a particular favourite. I love how free she is, I love that she knows what she wants and isn’t afraid to get it herself, I love that she’s smart and cunning and owns her sexuality and isn’t ashamed of it. I love this fierce lady.
And Jon Snow! Probably not what you’d expect based on my other two favourites, but I love this kid. I can’t wax poetical about him as much as I can about some other characters, but I think he’s wonderful. I love how genuinely kind he is, despite his solemn nature and I adore his relationships with his siblings. I love how much he grows up and learns (Ygritte! His interactions with her slay me.) and how he thinks too much sometimes. I love how hard he tries despite how other people see him, his snark, and I adore his entire ADWD storyline, but spoilers. So yeah, I love this asshole, although I’m bad at explaining exactly why.
(Seriously, this was really hard. So many characters I adore that couldn’t make it.)


2.Who are your least favorite three characters in the series? Why?
Walder Frey. All the Freys, actually, but let’s go with Walder. A cliché pick, I’m sure, but the man is so damn disgusting that I had to pick him. I don’t think an explanation is needed here.
Joffrey Baratheon. What a stupid, cruel, spoiled brat. His treatment of Sansa makes me physically sick. I love Cersei and her chapters, but my god, whenever she thinks about Joffrey as her sweet, good boy I just sit there shaking my head. One of the few deaths I actively cheered at (along with Viserys).
I’m going to leave one of these spots for a character that just bores the life out of me. The Damphair. Aeron Greyjoy. The amount of fucks I do not give about this dude. Ugh. His and Victarion’s are the only chapters I considered skipping. I really, really don’t care about either of them.
(Also, people like Qyburn, Gregor Clegane, Viserys, Ramsay Bolton and so on. I hope those go without saying. People who woobify Viserys mystify me. There are some terrible people in these books.)


3.#1 Favorite moment in all of ASOIAF so far? Why?
Probably Dany’s final chapter in AGOT – the birth of her dragons. It’s just such a beautiful, magical, breathtaking moment. Also have to menton the defense of the Wall against the Wildlings. It’s such an exhilarating, triumphant scene in a series that loves to punch you in the face and then kick you while you’re down that it’s hard not to love it.
4. In your dream-world, how would you like to see the series end, and why?
To be honest, it’s not something I’ve given much thought too (because it hurts too much), so I don’t have a clear picture. But I’d like a hopeful ending. I realize it’s going to be a painful road, but if the end itself is bleak, I don’t know what I’d do with myself. As for specific characters, I only have hopes about Sansa’s arc. I want her to continue on her path of becoming a major political badass and eventually outfox Littlefinger and be the one to give him his due. I want her to survive and go on to rule in Winterfell as Queen in the North/Warden of the North/what-have-you. And I want Arianne ruling in Dorne (at the least). And basically I just want to have at least some of my favourites survive these damn books. Too much to hope for? Probably. I’m an optimist.

Comments

Martell

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While I can understand the Martell votes, and I see some Lannister in you, as others have said, that quote is pure Targaryen.