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Age: 22
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Occupation: Graphic designer, bohemian and writer.




All About You

NOTE: I'm really bad at filling out these things. It's really boring to do and I'm tryin' my best to be as detailed as I can okay bros?

1. Describe your ideal house/home. Please go into as much detail as possible, and be sure to include your ideal geographical location in the description!.

This one really depends on my mood. And right now, it's the deep woods in a late fall that lasts forever. I want the threat of bears and mountain lions. It'd be cool to have to defend myself and whoever I'm living with from deep woods beasts. It'd be lovely to have a large clearing near by for picnics or whatever. Dicking around and getting drunk in the woods sounds like the ideal night for me. Just saying.

House-wise, something rustic. Small probably. Not necessarily a log cabin, but something folky and rustic. And if there's such thing as a whisky cellar, I would want that. Just googled it. There is. And I would want one. Also it would have to be totally bug proof because I hate those little bastards.

There's really not that much I need to be happy and think where I'm going with this is:
anywhere with whisky, a treadmill, apple pie, the entire Zeppelin discography and books, I'm fine.
I'd also want to be at least 20 min away from town. And the town would have to have an amazing record store. And a huge old library. And a small super old graveyard. Or my house could just be attached to those three things.
ALSO it'd be really cool if I had oil lamps. Because I bought one today and it's ridiculously rad.


2. Imagine you’re given the classic opportunity: a genie granting you three wishes. What would you wish for? Please be as elaborate as you can. Wishing for more wishes is not permitted!
What about wishing that I could wish for more wishes? Trollolol.

Wish 1: I'm going to be selfish for all three of these because that's how I roll. I would wish that I could go into books and leave whenever I wanted. It would almost be like time traveling, you know? Being able to interact but having to restrain yourself from interfering too much, and changing the story. Being so tempted to save your favorite characters, or warn them of what's coming next. Or if the genie was like "lol no that's too risky for the literary world gtfo" I'd be content just living and working in a research library or archive. I love books.

Wish 2: Money. For those who say 'money can't buy happiness' have you ever gone shopping when you're sad? Because it's awesome. Not stupid clothes shopping, like used book shopping? Finding the reeeeaaally old ones and being like 'omg rad'. Then heading over to the LPs part of the store that are always overpriced and in shit condition but looking at them anyway? It's so fun. And if I had money, I'd never have to worry about rent again. I'd actually buy all my MP3s, movies and TV shows. I'd pay my late fees. Student loans? History. I just want money to dick around with. Not save or buy extravagant things.

Wish 3: Part of me wants to say 'be the best at whatever I do, no matter what it is I'm doing. I would be the best.' but the other part of me says 'well that's stupid. You already have a shit ton of money. Don't be a jackass too.'
So, I think, actually self confidence. An aptitude for leadership. I'm so bad at taking charge. Weather it be taking charge of my life or mundane tasks. And if the genie was like 'that's stupid. I can't change your personality' I'd be like 'I want Bob Dylan and I to go out to a sunday brunch every sunday until one of us dies.' Need I even explain that one? He's Bob Dylan. He's a poet. A musician. An artist. He got arrested last year for creeping in peoples windows. He's 70 years old. He dances at his concerts (I've seen it, don't dispute me.) I have 2 Bob Dylan tattoos. I have a section of my wall devoted to his posters.


3. In your life so far, what accomplishment are you the most proud of? Why? You can list more than one if you have trouble deciding. ;)
Humm. I'm pretty proud of how much I've become not a douche since I graduated High school. Seriously, I was so mean in highschool. Such a snob. Judgmental. I made this one girl cry once because I called her a firecrotch. (To be fair, she made my friend cry once, so. I was defending her honor.) In general, I was a cunt with horrible taste who's biggest accomplishment was becoming a second degree black belt and thinking that mattered. I'm so glad I didn't continue down my parents path of hatred, anger, bias, and Fox news. I've been in the semi real world now. I graduated college in spring. And I'm not really proud of that as much as I'm just proud that I'm not a douche anymore. Not a cunt. I'm so glad that highschool me is not current me, you know? I dont' feel more mature, If anything, drinking a lot and smoking a lot is a sign of immaturity. But I'm happy now. And I'm nice. And accepting. And I feel more like myself than I've ever felt before, I think. God that sounds lame.

4. Which of the following is most important to you: Love, Money, Knowledge, Family, Friendship, Adventure, or Pleasure? Which is the least important to you? Please explain why for each choice.
oooh. interesting. I'd have to say the most important for me is adventure. I love going on adventures. Going into the woods to sketch some things and getting perpetually lost is my daily routine. Getting in the car and being like 'I wonder where that road leads...' Finding an amazing pizza place at a gas station. I love finding old graveyards, doing gravestone rubbings, then going to a university library and seeing if the archive section can tell me anything about their lives. Seeing what happens when you try to sleep in a library overnight without being found (I failed at this endeavor.) Seeing if you're successful on hitting on the cop you talked out of a parking ticket two days earlier that you're seeing at the liquor store (I was. Totes banged him a month later.) I've got a silver tongue. I'm convinced.

Least important. Love. There's an Oscar Wilde quote 'the happiness of a married man depends on those he has not married' I couldn't agree more. Though, I admit, I've never been married. I've been in love twice, and it's great while it lasts. But after that, you've got your friends. And a night of whisky, bon fires, bars and friends has yet to fail as a heart ache fixer. In my experience, love is temporary. It never lasts. Even if people are still married like my parents, they don't love each other any more. Not really. So why even engage? Why subject yourself to that crap? Because it hurts in the end. I'm content with random hook ups and the one nice boyfriend a year thankyouverymuch. Family love, okay. I get that. I love my little brothers and sister. I would die for them. Not so much my parents but that's different. That's family love. I'm the oldest of 4 kids. I'm not a leader (as I said before) But I would do anything it takes to save my little brothers or sister. They mean even more to me than my closest friends. My 18 year old little brother is in the marines (bootcamp) and I couldn't be more proud. My 20 year old sister is working two jobs to pay her way through nursing school and consider her my best friend. My 16 year old brother works at a movie theater as his first job and I'm kinda proud I guess. Family love is different from romantic love. So different. that kind of love is number 2 on my list (after adventures). And the type of love wasn't specified, so I'm assuming romantic love, and to said love I shall say 'Nay. Said love sucks major balls.'

5. What's one quote (or passage, song lyric, etc.) that effectively describes you and your values? Explain.
"You're going to reap just what you sow." Perfect Day, Lou Reed or "Feed your head, feed your head!" White Rabbit, Jefferson Airplane. Or "An' though the course may change sometimes, rivers always reach the sea." Led Zeppelin, Ten years gone. OR "Don't think twice, it's all right." Bob Dylan

Lou's lyrics ring true to everything. You get what you put in in the end. I'm a big believer in karma. And things coming back to bite you in the ass. If you're a dick, people are dicks to you. If you're kind and fun loving, people should, in theory, be kind and fun loving back. I feel being kind and fun loving can't be bad for you.

Jefferson Airplane's lyrics, in my opinion, refer to both drugs and knowledge. Both of which I'm totally down for. But let's lean more towards knowledge for the purpose of this. Soak up all that you can. A large volcab can do wonders in any situation. The feeling you get when you make a joke about Kafka upon seeing a bug and having no one understand it is bittersweet. I love having a small specific field of knowledge that I soar in, but on the other hand, I wish others could enjoy my wit. That makes me sound like I think I'm smarter than everyone. Damnit. I'm not. I'm smarter than most people my age in the appreciation of art and literature that I deem rad. Now I sound slightly less douche-y.

6. How do you manage your money? On that note, how important is money/financial security to you? Go into as much detail as you can.
terribly. Like, seriously terribly. Half my paycheck goes to booze, a quarter to rent funds and a quarter to records and books. I don't save shit. It's hard to believe I was raised Jewish. I live paycheck to paycheck and I love it. I love my lifestyle. Bohemian and wonderful. I wish it were the lat 60s so I could do LSD and listen to Pink Floyd (Piper was a late '67 release I believe) I'm 22 so I can still pull this crap but when I'm 30, I dont' know man. I hope I'm more mature then.
How important is financial security to me? Not that important. But like I said, if I had 3 wishes one of them would be for money. Mostly to get myself out of debut and to just buy expensive books, not really to change my way of living, you know? I like living how I do. I like having a shitty apartment and having to worry if i'm going to get stabbed at night if I go smoke on the porch. I think it's fun. And exciting. And I hate snoody rich people like my parents who are embarrassed of my tattoos and think George Bush was a good president.
But I mean, I don't really want to be homeless only because my shit would get stolen. I think It'd be an adventure to be homeless for like a year or so, don't you? Walk a mile in their shoes. I live like a homeless person most of the time anyway.
So I'd have to say 'not that important' as far as financial security goes. But I would absolutely love money to buy a ton of records and books and give my brothers and sister and friends money that they could do whatever they wanted with.

7. Name (and elaborate on) some of your hobbies. What are your favorite things to do outside of school/the office?
Drinking: I love whisky. I love scotch. I'm an artist and live as such. I feel like a douche for listing 'drinking' as number one, but whateves. It's number one in my heart. I self medicate with it, I drink for inspiration, I drink to have more confidence, I drink to calm down and I drink because it's fun, mostly. I'm trying to elaborate as much as I can on why booze is awesome, but I feel if I elaborate any more on this I'll come across as a drunkard. More than I already have. Just know this: I only drink when I want to.

reading: I believe I've said how much I enjoy books already, have I not? When I'm super poor, I'll go from library to library and check books out and just never return them. It's like stealing, but not. But it totally is. When I was in college my freshman year living in the dorms, on weekends I'd go to the library for 9 hour spans researching gravestones and obscure artists. I would love to work as a librarian if all it entailed of was reading books all day, writing research papers with no due date, writing in general, reading old library records and telling people to shut up.

going on adventures: Yes I like going on adventures. I live in a city, but it's also a 20 min drive into the heart of the northern wilderness. I couldn't go to class once because there were bears in my yard. My 'big adventure of the summer' this year was renting a boat with my friends and exploring uninhabited islands for a week. I don't know how else to elaborate on this. I do dumb things. I break into abandoned buildings to take pictures. I find the oldest grave in a cemetery and research that person's life. I broke my toe last week trying to throw an axe. Two months ago, I got out of the shower, couldn't get the tangles and matts out of my hair, so I just chopped it all off. I purposely live in a shitty part of the city because I like the thrill of feeling like "I might get shot tonight." I make most of my decisions on a whim, I have a tendency to throw caution to the wind and I spend money on things I can't afford.

Working out: Yeah, you can't really drink as much as I do and not have some kind of work out planned every day. I enjoy it. I like working out inside during spring and summer on bikes or whatever because I hate warm weather, but during fall I'll run in the woods, and winter, just walking in the woods with all that snow is a work out. Yeah I don't know how I can elaborate on this further. It's like when you were in math and the question is like 'Explain your answer.' 'because it just is. Because it's math.'

8. Name three things you are afraid of. Explain.
I'm not going list my crippling phobia of aliens because It's ridiculous.

Imperfection - When it comes to my art/design/writings. I think it's more of a lack of self confidence that something's not good enough, though. I'm pretty confident in most other things I do, but my art, designs and writings...I can't post that on the internet unless it's perfect. Not to be a dick but I dont' understand why anyone would post their terrible art. Aren't they embarrassed? Hasn't anyone read a horrible fan fic and been like 'Why would anyone even publish this?' I think my fear is someone looking at something I did and thinking that. I dont' know why. I think, the idea of someone telling me I'm horrible at the one thing I think I'm decent at would probably induce a month long bender and a life long sense of inadequacy. And I can't have that. Because booze should be enjoyed! And my cocky smartass 'I'm smarter than you and have better taste than you' personality would be replaced by some pussy one.

Life - Like I doubt I'll be able to function in real grown up adult society ever. "Hope I die before I get old." I hope I die before I turn 30, I really do. My life style isn't acceptable for anyone over 29. I freelance graphic design. That's my main income. I have no schedule. See an unbathed, smelly, dirty 22 year old in the woods with a sketchbook, notebook, and a tent, you think 'oh that person thinks they're Thoreau.' see someone in their 30s 'That person is crazy.'
I don't know if it's me being afraid of life as much as it is me being afraid to grow up and be mature. I like living on the edge! It's an adventure! Why can't I be Hunter S. Thompson?

two is good enough.

9. Name (and elaborate on) your top three BEST and top three WORST qualities (personality-related, not physical). Please answer as fully as you can, as this is an important question.
GOOD:
Wit/Sarcasm - I entertain myself, if no one else with it. I like most of my personality. I like to tell myself I'm not a sarcastic asshole, I'm just witty. And said alleged wit is my favorite aspect of myself. It makes me seem both well read and kind of a dick at the same time! Both of which are true!
I love stand up comedy (Patton Oswalt & Eugene Mirman are my favorites) and love anything that drips with sarcasm. And anything that makes you think. I love reading Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's Sherlock Holmes novels. Always interesting. Oscar Wilde quotes never fail to make me laugh.

Happy-Go-Lucky - I love just kinda going with it and ending up wherever. Hitchhiking to summer music festivals and living in tents two or three times a year. Nothing ever really bothers me. I can't remember the last time I was mad for over an hour. I can't stay mad at someone for over a day, even if I try. My sister and I fight sometimes and all she has to do to make me not mad is to just come in my room and say something stupid then we're good. I'm really laid back and relaxed and I don't know how to elaborate upon that any more.

General Badass Nature - Can't you tell just by reading this I'm totally badass?


BAD
Apathetic - Yeah I go through bouts of sloth that last weeks where I just sit around and do nothing. I'm extremely lazy. Sometimes I just sit around for two days and watch every season of Arrested Development. I never get up on time. If I ordered something online and it never came, and I just waisted 60 dollars on a helper dog vest in hopes of bringing my dog with me into walgreens, I won't even do anything. I don't care. I let my bank account go into negative for a while, and instead of depositing my paychecks and doing all the back-payments, I just cash my checks and make a new account at a different bank. I live in the now a little bit too much. I also hate cell phones and facebook so I have neither. That doesn't really have anything to do with anything, but I'm throwing it out there anyway.

Judgmental - fine art, and music. God forgive you have a different taste in music or art than me. I have no idea how people can listen to the shit that they play on the radio these days. Ugh. Just makes me want to run towards the nearest living thing and kill it. 1920s-1970s. Gold. If I find out one of my friends listens to shit, I will relentlessly bully them into submission. When I'm at the art museum, I am also a dick. 'modern art' is such bullshit, and I obnoxiously announce it when I see it. I embarrass my friends and they often refuse to go to galleries with me.

On that note, I'm a blunt, tactless asshole.





A Song of Ice and Fire Related

1.Who are your favorite three characters in the series? Why?

Tyrion Lannister - I find it hard to believe that he couldn't be in someone's top three. He's my very favorite, I think. He's such a smartass. GRRM must be a huge smartass too because In my experience, you must possess great wit to write a great wit. And I'd marry him in an instant, you know? Someone that fun? And he's one of two Lannisters I don't hate.

Jamie Lannister - The other Lannister I don't hate. I don't know how to explain why he's pretty rad without spoilers....We'll just go with 'I give him a hand for getting his shit together.'

Samwell Tarly - When he's in the library looking for maps and he's like 'this is treasure' jon's like 'this isn't treasure. treasure is gold' and how he knows his strengths and weaknesses and is a pussy but whateves, he's great.

honorable mentions: Theon Greyjoy and Osha
I also like the idea of Maesters a lot. But I have yet to find one I'd count among my favorites. I'd like to be a Maester.

2.Who are your least favorite three characters in the series? Why?
Robert Arryn - Ugh. Ugh. God. Just...elugh. I don't care if he's a kid, I want to kill him.

Lysa Tully - She's insane. She also is very creepy. And that fucking son of hers, christ. She's a psychopath.

Joffrey - I needn't explain this. That little shit.

also, all the boltons and the freys.


3.#1 Favorite moment in all of ASOIAF so far? Why?
How can I answer this without giving away spoilers? How I ask you, how?

Joffery's death was pretty satisfying.

4. In your dream-world, how would you like to see the series end, and why?
I think it would be smartest to break the 7 kingdoms into seven again. And Tryion can be the president or something. I don't know how politics work.


PS I don't want 1 word answers please. Please tell me why.

Comments

[adeluxe.livejournal.com]

Wow. This was an...interesting application to read, to say the least.

But I definitely got Greyjoy themes throughout this. You wouldn't fit in anywhere else, except maybe House Baratheon.

Lannister

[adeluxe.livejournal.com]

Ugh, I keep doing this!