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Name: Vaidah
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Age: 29
Location: Long Island, New York
Occupation: Travel Agent and Accountant




All About You

1. Describe your ideal house/home. Please go into as much detail as possible, and be sure to include your ideal geographical location in the description!.
My dream home is a house that's built into a hill overlooking the ocean. I was always intrigued by houses where you can get outside from the upstairs, it could lead to some interesting architecture. The house doesn't have to be large, most likely it'd be only me, but the view is mostly what I care about. I love the ocean, I love the sound of the waves. I love New England, cept for the snow, and my dream home is totally doable where I live (if I wanted to pay an arm and a leg for it, omg).

2. Imagine you’re given the classic opportunity: a genie granting you three wishes. What would you wish for? Please be as elaborate as you can. Wishing for more wishes is not permitted!
My first wish would be that everyone I loved would have good health. I know, cliche, but too many people have been dying. Even pets. It's like I'm surrounded by death.
My second wish would be that I could figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I'm just sitting here straggling along while everything is speeding past me and I still have no idea what I have a passion for.
My third wish would be to stop hate. Hate is the cause of so much war and hurt and much of it is needless.

3. In your life so far, what accomplishment are you the most proud of? Why? You can list more than one if you have trouble deciding. ;)
My problem is that I don't think I've accomplished anything. But I'm working on that. I've made a list of the things I want to do, whether it be now or within my lifetime and I've already checked one of them off my list. I signed up for singing lessons, I really love singing and want to improve but I was scared for some reason, and I had my first lesson and I LOVED it. I went and I didn't cancel on her and hide in my room. I'm taking small steps, but I'm getting there.

4. Which of the following is most important to you: Love, Money, Knowledge, Family, Friendship, Adventure, or Pleasure? Which is the least important to you? Please explain why for each choice.
Family and Friendship go hand in hand for me and that is the most important. Without my family and friends I'd be no one. They all shaped who I am and who I want to be. I guess love is a part of that too.. but I suppose that means like.. getting married love?
It's so hard to pick which is least important because so many of these are truly important in their own way. I guess money? But money is still important, it's jut.. lower on the list? Sometimes I think a lot of my problems would be solved if I simply had the money in the bank, but it is possible to have all these other things with very little money.

5. What's one quote (or passage, song lyric, etc.) that effectively describes you and your values? Explain.
What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything? --Vincent van Gogh

In my life right now, I am trying to figure out what has kept me so stagnant. Part of it is due to a fear of failure and hiding in my safe spot and it has led me to be self sabatoging. I take a step and I find a way to mess it up. Numerous times I had the path laid before me and I only had to do one thing and get it right and I would always find a way to lose it all. I suppose I'm kinda doing it right now by filling out this application rather than pack for my trip that I'm leaving on tomorrow, but that's not exactly self defeating. More like procrastinating. I'm getting there. *smiles*

6. How do you manage your money? On that note, how important is money/financial security to you? Go into as much detail as you can.
Well, right now I live at home, so I don't have many major bills. I'm taking most of what I earn and am paying down my student loans and moving towards being debt free. It's a short term goal, haha. Financial security is important to me, not for right now, but for down the line. THANKFULLY this year I finally started an IRA and I hope to find other ways to put away for my retirement (totally NOT counting on social security even though they're stealing so much of my money. Less now that the employee pay in part was halved, but still). Money isn't important to me for material things, but for basic living costs. I see so many people struggling and I'm thankful my parents have a place for me until I figure out where I'm going.
The way I manage my money is I get my paycheck, I set aside what I need for my monthly bills, then the rest goes in my savings account. I rarely buy big things for myself. Though I did just buy a new ereader cause my old one has battery charging problems but that's more a necessity :P

7. Name (and elaborate on) some of your hobbies. What are your favorite things to do outside of school/the office?
I crochet. Well..I start project then never finish them, but I still crochet! I'm pretty darned good at it too.
I love going exploring in my area and going to places I haven't been before and taking pictures. I love taking pictures of nature. The trees and the flowers and the ocean. There are a lot of parks around here and I try to make my way to all of them.
I love to read. I don't get to do as much of it as I like but once I get into a book, I cannot put it down. I don't understand people who do not read much. I guess they fill their time with other things.
I'm also into beading. I make book thongs and really bad bracelets. But the beads are so pretty!!!

8. Name three things you are afraid of. Explain.
Failure.
Losing the people I love
Being alone.

Failure I touched on above in the quote section. It truly is cowardess.

I know normal friendships come and go, but I have a core group of friends that have been there throughout the years and I truly do not know what I would do without them. I rely on them so much to keep me sane and keep me going. If anything happened to them I know I'd be devestated.

I suppose being alone is linked to losing the people I love, but also to my worry that I'll never find that person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I don't think I've ever truly loved someone in that way. It could also be linked to a depression I'm trying to pull myself out of.

9. Name (and elaborate on) your top three BEST and top three WORST qualities (personality-related, not physical). Please answer as fully as you can, as this is an important question.
Best:
I'm a good listener. For some reason people confide in me and come to me when they need to vent. I'm always there to listen and somehow I have words to help them figure out what they need to. It's a trait my father also has, people come to him with their problems also. Sometimes it gets tiring but it does feel nice to set someone's mind at ease and help them.

I am meticulous in what I do. I'm very detail oriented and sometimes a job will take me a while to do but it will be done correctly. I think that was one of the things that brought me to accounting and maths (my dad's a CPA too, so maybe it wasn't fully that). It's like solving puzzles and I love puzzles.

I don't know whether this is a good quality but I can make my way through a class without studying much. Makes me wonder what I could do if I truly applied myself.

Worst:
I'm an insane procrastinator. I leave things for the last second and then freak out that I have no time and oooomg. I'm doing it right now.. *eyes unpacked suitcase* It takes a lot to motivate me though.. deadlines help, haha. Really not a good trait.

I'm a Leo, so I have to be the center of attention and be in charge of everything. At least this happens online. Not so much offline. I feel like Rachel in the movie Something Borrowed where I just let everything pass me by because I don't feel I'm worth them. Online I'll talk to anyone, join in on conversations, etc. But in the room with people I'm more apt to sit by myself or cling to those I know then make new friends. My need to be in charge of things leads me to extra worrying because once I get the courage to hand over the reigns to things, I sit and think I made the wrong decisions...

My self esteem is 0. Literally. I might come off as confident but I sit here wondering if I'm annoying the people I call friends, if they're thinking how they can get rid of me, or if I'm good enough for them. I'd rather sit alone in my room then go out into the world and do something with other people. I'm tired of chasing after people and being blown off with change in plans. For some reason I take it all to heart and I think that person is annoyed with me or really didn't want to hang out. Ugh.






A Song of Ice and Fire Related

1.Who are your favorite three characters in the series? Why?
Arya, Nymeria, and Tyrion.
Arya because she knows what she wants and she doesn't want to be a subserviant girl who just marries off and has kids. She doesn't want that life and no matter what anyone says she'll find her own way and have her own adventures.

Nymeria because she totally would have bitten Joffrey's face off if she wasn't told to stop. Seriously hate Joffrey.

Tyrion because he doesn't take anyone's shit. He was dealt lemons and he made the largest glass of lemonade EVER and he's always scheming and planning and he was nice to Bran.

2.Who are your least favorite three characters in the series? Why?
Jaime, Joffrey, Petyr.

Jaime because he has no loyalty to anyone but his sister. He's the kingsguard and he slayed one king and we KNOW had no loyalty to Robert whatsoever. That and you don't push 7 year old boys out windows.

Joffrey because he's soooo whiney and such a prick. Definitely genetic. He plays one face to Sansa, and I get that he was betrothed to her and things need to be pleasant but he's so hot and cold.

Petyr. -_- Damn you Littlefinger. I don't know the spoiler policy because my hate for him is for stuff that happens after where the show is (i'm still reading book 1) but he is so sneaky and so untrustworthy. He's only out for himself and his word means nothing.

3.#1 Favorite moment in all of ASOIAF so far? Why?
I don't know whether it's the late hour or just because it's funny but it's Tyrion pissing off the wall. That just cracked me up. I'm still on book 1 and I haven't finished yet, so I'm sure there will be more scenes that I love. The dancing lessons were also my favorites.

4. In your dream-world, how would you like to see the series end, and why?
Since I am only on book 1, I feel I cannot adequately answer this question yet. I don't know the other things that are happening but I tend to like stories with happy endings. I love my fair share of angst and drama, but inevitably i need a happy ending. At least somewhere for someone. Even if it's a minor character.


Just a note. I know I'm only on book 1, but I'm moving through it fairly quickly and I do not mind spoilers. I'll be caught up soon.

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